Ignorance

A wave of memories came sweeping through yesterday while i was packing my room.Saw some old momentos and stuff and for a period of time i thought of the past and how it used to be. So much less stress and frustrations then the present. Gone are those days. As i looked through some stuff yesterday in the midst of turning my room inside out, i laughed quite a bit but after a while, felt quite sad (weird? yeah, i agree.haha, kinda scary also. lol!). Did i disappoint others after all they've done for me?I hope not but if i did i'm sorry.

Well, all i can say is that you gotta really cherish your friends, for if you think about it, you spend the majority of your time with them and it is they who on countless occasions, put a smile on your face =)

Wide Awake

Afternoon lectures are driving me crazy!I don't understand the rationale of making us stay back in school until what,6 plus in the evening to do one paper!We should just be given the papers to do at home by ourselves or something.oh well,guess that's how the school is structuring the revision programme,every week we're gonna get pumped with stacks of papers to do.Nice!

No lessons tomorrow, it's scholarship and career fair day!time to get depressed hearing the requirements for scholarship applications!But we must not be overly affected by our mid year results, must press on and do better during prelims and then As!Don't give up, as ms leong showed us in the afternoon, must bounce back! =)

Sweet Sacrifice

Alright,i've been attempting to focus all my energy into my work recently (at the expense of my daily shows) and i must say, i'm getting the feel of studying back!hopefully this will translate into better results.I pray that it will.

On another note,my mind has been in a whirl recently.Just a few days ago,some old thoughts came back and started to haunt me.The last time it happened was 2 months ago and i tried real hard to get them out of my head and i did,but now,it's back.I hope the decision i've made is the right one.I really hope so.

WTH

Got back my mid year results and as usual, flunked everything, even my GP which i have come to rely on. When i got back my papers i was really irritated and frustrated because despite the effort i put into my revisions, i just somehow, for whatever reason, cannot do a good job for my exams these 2 years. What used to be a norm where my grades where still quite alright totally vanished when i step into AJ. Believe me, i'm not trying to blame anyone or anything here, least of all the school. The one thing i always want to blame is myself.

I really can't comprehend what's happening to me at all and its becoming very worrying, it's becoming desperate.

This sucks.